Sept. 25- Sofia turns 42, Jody summits Mt. Tallac for the first time

My birthday was a lot of mixed emotions. It was an amazing hike. Jody and I had a great time, the weather was good (A little windy at the top) we got lost but were able to find the path again, and we saw a baby bear! So glad we weren't eaten by his mama.

Jody didn't get me a card or a gift on my birthday. He didn't take the time to think or do something special and I was pretty devastated. Its nothing new, but I thought after all that has been done this year would have been different.

But God sent me an angel in the form of my son who spent the day baking a homemade cake for me and daughters who made beautiful cards for me. I felt very spoiled by them!!!

 

Sept. 24- Dead Lady's Estate Sale

One time we went to a garage sale and it was really awkward. A lady had died and we didn't want to buy anything. Except the electric wheelchair scooter and we didn't have enough money for that.

 

Sept. 23- Christina turns 19

Christina at 19 is a beautiful shining star. She is very self reflective, very pensive, and calm. She is the one people turn to because they know she provides a listening ear without judgement. She is confident, disciplined, strives to do her best whether at work, home or school. She is thoughtful and goes out of her way to do things to help others. She is soft spoken but firm in truth. She's turned out to be an excellent chef and has so many different talents including singing, art, and plant mothering.  She is a blessing. She is a comfort. She is a joy. We are so very proud of her, but more importantly hope she is proud of herself.

 

Sept. 18- Run Away the Pain

I'm having intense feelings of self worth issues. Everything was more important than me. I can try to separate myself from what happened, but it doesn't really work. The healing is so slow. But one thing I wont do is stop being active and treating my body with the respect it wasn't shown. My mind free to understand and my spirit close to God who will walk with me. I don't know what happened but I had a weird bruise on the top of my foot that hurt. Didn't matter, keep running.

 

Sept. 17- Mermaid Therapy

There is something so empowering about have a support system that listens and loves you no matter what. They aren't there to judge, advise, or do anything other than listen with open ears and hearts. Truly my friends have been my angels. They have helped me to find joy when I didn't want to. They were their to offer ideas when I asked. They were there to say whatever I decide to do, they will be there. I am so blessed to have them in my life. I love you Ram, Pam, and Kim. SoPaRaKi forever.